1. |
Firework
04:41
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I wish I had the courage
To speak up and fight it.
I wish I coulda left you,
And all your stupid games.
Lock up your memory
Like your deepest darkest secret.
Only to unlock it.
With the key of reminiscence
You're the type of person
Who could reel me in,
With the slightest hint of fingertip
Wrapped around my neck
Well I guess you can say now,
That neck went numb.
And all I'm leaving you with
Is some cold hearted blood.
For all those times,
I said I was sorry.
Well Maybe I shoulda just
Kept it to myself.
Cuz in the end,
Nobody really cares.
CHOURUS:
Let me be your shining firework
The one who blasts on New Year's Day.
Cuz I'm just as beautiful,
But you never realized it.
And I'm sorry my self worth
Wasn't worth it to you,
But I hope you take a seat and
Regret it all one day.
Cuz nothing stops my sparkle.
Nothing stops my shine.
You tried to take that
Away from me.
And that's a damn good try.
But this little firework is
Walking away.
You only wanted sympathy.
And I guess that's okay.
But you only wanted it
When I was at my brightest.
And when I lost a little luster,
In insecurity,
You blew it all up.
Saying I was a bit crazy,
For all those times,
I begged for forgiveness
Well maybe I shoulda just
Kept it to myself.
Cuz in the end,
Nobody really cares.
CHORUS
Infinite forgiveness
Infinite tries
But I guess after the last time,
It's time to say goodbye.
Let me be your Shining firework.
The one who
Blasts on New Year's Day,.
You tried to take that
Away from me.
And It's all okay.
But this little firework is
This little firework is
This little firework is
Walking away.
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2. |
Church Bells
04:06
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Church bells ring.
I hear them every hour.
All I hear,
Are their pretty tones.
No meaning behind them,
No sermon to summon.
They just ring,
Just like old times.
They're a little bit of history,
Reminding us of our roots.
No I don't wanna live like that.
CHORUS:
Church bells ring.
I hear them getting louder.
It takes every part of me
Not to go in there.
It's almost hypnotizing
And I wish I could tell you
What goes on in the tower
But not while the church bells
Are ringing.
We sing our hyms
Praying for forgiveness,
But we know
We have demons in our heads.
They're a little bit of history.
Reminding us of our roots.
No escaping sin;
At least we're not burned alive.
CHORUS
And all of you
Suffocating me with your criticisms.
Saying I probably sold my soul.
Well my mind
Is somewhere not even
The Devil would go.
Church bells ring
I hear them getting louder.
Maybe one day I'll tell you
What goes on in the tower.
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3. |
Tunnel Vision
03:16
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You fill my thoughts
Every chance you get
And you make sure there's nothing left.
To me,
You're a haunted mystery.
I've been told,
You regret the words you never say.
Well, I never did believe that...
Until I met you.
Never thought I'd see you.
Thought I could forget you.
Became infatuated,
Never was the same,
Of all the stupid things
I could have chose to say
I didn't say a thing.
CHORUS:
Reflecting back on it.
Whatever it was,
You made my head spin wild.
Whenever you're around,
Can't help but have
Tunnel Vision
Your image overwhelms my brain.
Can't think outside the lines,
I just have
Tunnel Vision
Your green eyes,
And strong jawline.
Stays perfectly in place,
Even when we're months away.
And I wonder why,
You're still on my mind.
Never thought I'd see you.
Thought I could forget you.
Maybe I could catch you,
Now that you're gone.
Of all the stupid things
I could have chose to say
I didn't say a thing.
CHORUS
Well maybe I still found a way
To humiliate myself.
Or maybe my
Lack of trying saved me,
I know I'm late with everything
I want to say.
But you're still all that's on my mind.
Reflecting back on it,
Whatever it was.
You're everything I could
Ever want.
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4. |
Puppeteer
04:02
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I know what it's like
To be taken advantage of.
And I know what it's like
To have the butt end of the deal.
You're the kinda guy
Who knows what it's like,
At least that's what you put out into the world.
Well what you put out
Is what you get back
And I'm gonna break the cycle
Here.
It takes two,
To play these games.
Sick of being on the receiving end?
Well maybe you should flight back
CHORUS:
Cuz once you take a hit
You know you're gonna miss it
You know you're gonna miss me.
But did you really think...
Did you really think
I'd let you off that easily
No No No
Cuz boy
For once you got a girl,
You can't tie onto strings.
And now she's your
Puppeteer
If you think your blue eyed stare,
Is gonna hold me down
Gonna keep me down.
Well you're wrong.
Cuz my smile reels you in,
Gonna keep you in.
Or maybe I'll let you go.
It takes two,
To play these games
Sick of being on the receiving end?
Well now I'm gonna
Fight back.
CHORUS
It's your turn,
To be hanging by a thread.
It's your turn
To wonder if I'll text back,
It's your turn
It's your turn
It's your turn
To be played by the Puppeteer.
Cuz I've been the puppet
All my life
But now I'm seeing the
Brighter side
As your
Puppeteer
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5. |
Nowhere
03:44
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Why'd you never call me?
Why'd you never text?
You said you'd always be around
But I guess you moved
Onto your next.
I wish you were here
When you were needed the most.
Now you wanna hold on tight
And never let go
Well I don't need you
Like you said you wanted me
You will never
Hear an apology from me.
CHORUS:
This time I'm gonna say
It's not allowed to go this way
No apologies from me
It's gotten me Nowhere
It's gotten me Nowhere.
No apologies from me
Cuz it's gotten me Nowhere.
All I'm hearing
Are excuses after excuses
People like you
Like to leave me lonely
Well I don't need them
Like they said they wanted me
You will never
Hear an apology from me.
CHORUS
Well you should know by now
I don't play by the rules.
I dance to my own beat;
My heart is my drum
And that's why
They don't want
Anything to do with me.
This time I'm gonna say
It's not allowed to go this way
No apologies from me.
It's gotten me Nowhere
(Gotten me Nowhere)
Gotten me Nowhere
No apologies from me
And I'm gonna dance to
My own beat.
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6. |
Cruel Sick Joke
05:36
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My heart is heavy.
Numb.
My limbs are nothing but
Lifeless extensions.
You were my best friend,
But I know I was
A smaller part
Of your story.
PC: Every life you touched,
Every soul,
Every essence,
Will miss you
More than you know.
CHORUS:
This was a shot in the dark.
I was left in the dark.
I'm begging for this to be a
Cruel Sick Joke.
I'd rather roll my eyes and
Ask “Why the hell you'd do such a thing”
Then to know
That I won't
See you again.
My my my
What would I do
To know
You're still here.
I'm in denial.
And in those moments
When I'm not,
I'm breaking down.
Your life
Your soul
Your essence
Mattered more to me
More than you'll
Ever get to know
CHORUS
You were my rock.
An unconditional supporter.
Helping me become
The best version
Of myself
Now all I can ask
Is you support me
From the stars
Please tell me
This is cruel sick joke.
I wanna roll my eyes
And ask “Why the hell you'd do such a thing”
Not see you for the last time
Inside a coffin.
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7. |
For Myself
03:37
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I'm going on an adventure.
I don't know when I'm
Coming back.
I'm doing things a little differently.
They say the world is
Your oyster
And the skies are the limit.
Well maybe I've been
Sheltered like a pearl
And seen men go to the moon.
Follow their plans and
Big dreams turn into
Little houses.
Your light will dim.
CHORUS:
I'm gonna find myself,
Whether or not you come with me.
You think I'm gonna fall.
Well that's where you're wrong.
Cuz when I'm feeling lost,
I'm gonna remember
Where I'm going,
What I'm doing.
It's all for myself.
It feels like I'm starting
A new chapter of
My life.
But my storyline
Doesn't fit their pages.
Well maybe I'll rip some out.
But I'm not following
Their time line.
They say they can get you
Where you need to go,
But they're only putting
Their needs first.
CHORUS
Well my time
On this Earth,
Is bigger than
What box they can
Put me in.
And nobody
Is stopping me.
I'm gonna find myself
For myself
You think I'm gonna fall.
Well that's where you're wrong.
Cuz when I'm feeling lost,
I'm gonna remember
Where I'm going what I'm doing
It's all for myself.
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8. |
Looking For
04:01
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9. |
Rebirth
03:28
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There are certain types of people
Who are meant to be royal.
People who command a room
And demand to be heard
Well you should know by now
I envy that trait
Yeah you should know by now
I wish that was me.
Yeah you thought x3
I'd accept my fate by now
And you'd think x3
I'd eventually be okay
You know I've been knocked down
Over and over again
I've been busy picking
Myself up.
Time and time again.
I'm so tired of saying I'm done.
And I'm done with being tired.
So this is my rebirth
And I'm going to
Stand tall
You're going to shoot low
But I've already hit rock bottom.
You're expecting me to crack
But I've already done that.
Yeah you thought x3
I'd be crawling back to you
And you'd think x3
I'd be begging for forgiveness.
CHORUS
I'm so tired of these games
And being immature
I think we should grow up
I think it's almost time.
And I'm not afraid to reinvent myself
Because that's what I need
More than anything
I'm so tired of saying I'm done
And I'm done with being tired
This is my rebirth
This is my rebirth.
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Nikkie I Tucson, Arizona
NOWHERE. Out Now.
PUPPETEER. 5/18
Singer. Songwriter. Big Dreamer.
Instagram/Twitter/Facebook/Tumblr: @NikkieIOnline
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